Last Meal

So this is my very first entry as a married woman!! I can't believe that I am someones wife now....craziness!! All is going pretty good. I absolutely love my husband but there is just one drawback about this marriage..... I weigh about 10 pounds more now!! :( This is not ok. What am I doing to myself? I have no idea....but I think I know what I can do about it. I was thinking today about completely changing my lifestyle. Not only by putting healthy all natural things in my body but by trying harder to be the best person I can be. I don't think I have been trying very hard at that lately. I think that the myth about marriage...yah know the one about where the two people let themselves go and become someone completely different. I feel like that's what I'm starting to do. To become someone else, someone who has let go and someone who has no idea what they are doing here! Ok so I think I have a plan to change this...to make it different...to make it much better than it was before. For the rest of December I plan on preparing for the next year of my life. I know that sounds silly and wrong since we are only supposed to live one day at a time and not worry about the future but technically I'm not worried about it I'm just kind of a little preparing for it. I just really want to surround myself with the most positive things I can! I know that I need more of God in my life and right now I feel like I'm in a ditch. It doesn't have anything to do with my husband so please don't be discouraged from getting married. This thing that is happening to me is just that...it's happening inside me and only to me and if I let it keep going in this direction it might start to effect someone that I love. Alright so anyways I just stuffed my face with my last fast food meal and will hopefully start fresh right now. I have found that when I eat bad constantly it puts a damper on more than weight. It effects my head, the way I feel and my daily confidence. It brings me way down and although I have so many other things in my life to lift me up and keep me joyous it's nice to know that I'm doing something good for myself too! So here's to right now...this very moment and what's to come! All I really have control of is the things I do in this life, the body I have, the way I choose to treat it and I want to start doing the right things in the stuff that I can enjoy in this life! Bettering myself, my grades, my heart.