Down Time

I'm sitting here at work with absolutely nothing to do wondering what in the world I'm doing here. Not just here as in at my desk waiting for my next project, more like what in the world am I doing with my life? My honest to all goodness answer is nothing. Right now I am not doing anything that really has any meaning. I'm passionate about a lot of things but am I really doing anything about my passion? No. So the question is not what am I going to do with the rest of my life but what am I going to do with my life right now? Hmmm. I was reading the Bible last night and I came to a part in Luke that basically said, give up everything you have all your possesions and your wants and go out and make a difference, go out and do something for the world, for the people around you that are lost and poor. This hit me in a weird way...I don't know what I'm supposed to do with it but I do know that we only get one life and that if I use up the one I have right now being selfish and wasteful with my time then I've ruined the greatest gift I have, to live, to do things that mean something, to finish things that we start and are so sure of...I don't want my life to be full of working at a job that I dislike but I am grateful for because I could do a lot worse and a whole bunch of downtime that I do not use wisely. To be quit honest I barely use my down time at all, not to the best of it's abilities.
But it's so easy to complain about right? I could get everything that I want tomorrow and still not be happy the next day so with that said no complaining, no slumming around all day regretting the things that I haven't done, all the time I've wasted. No I can either do two things; get up and do something about it or shut up!! I'm really hoping I choose to get up and do something about it because if not then I've just wasted this life that I really don't deserve in the first place...I guess only time will tell....